Struck again...

A reflection of the heart
A lie told by the mirror
A joke made by a riddler
A poem written by a martyr

Ever had that feeling when you wake up and you
know it's gonna be one of those days again...
nothing ever seems to go right the minute you open your eyes.
The sun is too bright, the birds are not singing your favorite tune
and your head is in a mess with all the stupid
thoughts running through your mind
causing you to slip back down the train of depression...

Sometimes I wonder if being sensitive is actually
a good thing. For one, you actually takes
the smallest words and twist them up
into completely different words and you take their meaning
in the worse way possible, scanning all the
possibilities and in the end take whatever words
thrown to you as either an insult or getting
left out or whatever that drags you down.

It's one of those days again where I start to
think about my place and where I stand.
It's really depressing to think about these
things, but if I don't think about it...
I get worse and try to hide everything inside
till the next time I explode and all those past
feelings come rushing back and attack me where it hurts.

I guess I'll just have to live with it... for now...

The blood that runs deep
I'll cut in deep and set you free
Flow down my skin and let it pour
Wash away this unending sore...

-Jian-

Ink Tears

Tears write the best stories

Every drop adds meaning to every word
Every splatter that falls down to the ground
Brings my stories to life

With every tear,
There is nothing to hide
They form magic
With every letter and every rhyme

Though I wish these tears would stop,
But I dare not wipe them away
Cause if I had
I would never had written this way....

-Jian-

PS: Excuse my bad writing... it's been a while....

Tears of Love

Meeting someone for the very first time would be an awkward moment for some people, but meeting someone for the very first time and being able to have an impromptu photo shoot... now that's something else... whatever that something is... you tell me XD

Bella and Jess, two people I meet online and for some apparent reason, we decided to met up and well so we zoomed to Montes at Bangsar Shopping Center and... the outcome is one awesome photo/camwhore session. Plus, I feel poetic today...

Tears of Love

I never knew how it happened

It seems I fell too hard

The tears of love took over

As you took over my heart

Trying to ease the pain

Cause the pain of love is just too much

Shall I take the jump

To take that chance

To learn to love once again

And to feel love in return?

You were always there for me
Now it's my turn to be there for you

-End-

Yeap... this was the first time we ever met face to face and we did a number of couple shots. I must say I am quite happy with the results:

The life of a Host

To please his customers

Scared?

Pieces of Black and White Align

Aww.... *pinch cheeks*

Btw... they are only 15 XD
*For any guys who had any intentions... You Pedos*

-Jian-

PS: Thx for the Shoot girls... can't wait to see you two again

Journey

Wandering in the Darkness

Journeying for my light
As I look for love
I was blinded by it's might

I thought you would be the one
I would hold and cherish
You showed me the way
And then you led me astray

Broken and torn
I looked ahead

Placing the pain behind
I continue my way
Down this lonely road
To a journey unknown

-End-

-Xajin-



Journey Through the Decade by Gackt

Time is Dying

A hole in my soul
Bleeding as I go
Waiting for my time
To run out of rhyme

My life is drained
My heart is in pain
It's almost time
For me to get going

Lying under that same sky
Now is the time
For me to die

-Jian-

Yea... emo Jian again... woopie =.=

Watching Chris Rock to keep me happy

Tears for the Forgotten

Death looms closer to my soul,

Telling me it's almost time to go,
His claws are driving to my throat,
Ready to strike that fated blow.

Only a moment left I have to live
Soon I'll be gone to eternal bliss
Death has gotten to me before your kiss
Never will I be able touch your lips

Soon my tale of life will end
Never will I live again
I just have one thing to ask before I leave
Will you cry for me....
Once I am missed?

-Jian-

ゆすけ

xoxoxoxo

PS: Will anyone miss me once I am gone...?

Death is on my mind



Zakurogata No Yuuustu by Gazette

Still stuck

Realizing the emptiness inside

I try my best not to cry
Tears filled my heart
But not my eyes
As i sit under this lonely night

Looking up at Heaven's Gate
Wishing it was a place for me
But the doors are closed
As no angel will smile upon me

Heaven will shed no tears for me
For a man chasing a mindless dream

-Jian-

Good morning.... I miss college being busy for some reason, at least I got some stuff to do...

Well at least I'm finally finishing some anime shows... Muahahaha


-Jian-

ゆすけ

PS: Happy Birthday Felicia Ong

Garden of Dreams

Here in this summer breeze

No clouds to be seen
My heart is beating
As I slowly begin thinking

The thought of you
Will not keep me still
With a vision of your smile
It makes my heart go wild

Sitting here
With a restless mind
I could no longer hold
What I kept inside

With romance on my mind
Clear as it seems
I'll hold you close
In my Garden of Dreams

How I wish I can find my Garden of Dreams and stay with the calm serenity of nature... =]

1st Day of the semester break... what have I been doing?

• Anime
• Games
• Facebook
• Anime
• Bored
• Music
• More Anime

Yea... that sums it up... Conclusion... JIAN IS BORED!!!!

-Jian-

ゆすけ

Chemical King Twoon by LM.C

Shadowed...

Looking into the mirror's glow's

Seeing a reflection of the soul
The double who we thought was you
Was nothing more than a shadow's hue

Hanging on the balance
of a time gone wrong
Shadowed by the darkness
With nothing holding on

Trying so hard to mask the truth
Yet the mask falls off revealing the real you

Look deep into that heart of yours
Find for that piece you solely own
Be true to thy self
And never let go

Finally... Freedom is here. No more classes and lugging heavy books. I can finally set my feet on high and enjoy to my heart's content.

Thanks for today... I had lots of fun... too bad I can't say the same for this evening:

-Jian-

ゆすけ

Amazing Grace

Grasping Freedom...

The chains that bind

Steel so cold...

Return me my freedom

Give me back my soul

For
Freedom is the only thing I left unknown

-Jian-

Trapped by the chains of fate,

Waiting to be set free...

Only you hold the key

That binds me to my Destiny

-Jian-

Only ONE more paper left... I can taste the sweet nectar of freedom. The chains of today shall be broken by the dreams of tomorrow.

-Jian-

ゆすけ

PS: I NEED TO TAKE MORE PICTURES!!!

Tetra Fang's Destiny Play

My ode to life....

When the world got me down

Smile and don't show a frown

Hold thy head on high

And walk away with a smile


This is who I am inside

Waiting for your answer

To heed those words of joy or tear

That is all I am after

-Jian-

Bracing the world without fear

Buck Up....

COME ON JIAN!!!

FIGHT!!!

ONLY A FEW DAYS

3 PAPERS

YOU'LL DO FINE....

DON'T THINK SO MUCH!!!

CONCENTRATE!!!!


YOU KNOW WHAT YOU MUST DO...

DON'T LET THE ONE THAT CARES FOR YOU DOWN!!!!

F
O
C
U
S

AIM FOR THE CHECKMATE

-Jian-

ゆすけ

Shadowed by this fear

Alone in the dark

Will anyone show me the way

And set me free from these chains

....

It's the Light I seek....



DISTRESS AND COMA