My head goes F

DAMN I HATE THIS NOW....

HEAD SPINNING....

STUPID NIGHTMARES ><

Still stuck

Realizing the emptiness inside

I try my best not to cry
Tears filled my heart
But not my eyes
As i sit under this lonely night

Looking up at Heaven's Gate
Wishing it was a place for me
But the doors are closed
As no angel will smile upon me

Heaven will shed no tears for me
For a man chasing a mindless dream

-Jian-

Good morning.... I miss college being busy for some reason, at least I got some stuff to do...

Well at least I'm finally finishing some anime shows... Muahahaha


-Jian-

ゆすけ

PS: Happy Birthday Felicia Ong

We're Still Under the same Sky...

I felt serious down earlier this evening and I've been repeating this song over and over again...

I calmed myself down by watching Ouran High School... It always seems to cheer me up

But what cheered me up the most was this lil phrase:
"We're still under the same sky"

I did this out of boredom.... so sue me

-Jian-

ゆすけ

Standing under the star lite sky

Thoughts of you come into mind

I start to wish on them

Hoping to see then with you tonight

~YAWN~

Jian is now stuck at home and he is feeling really bored....

He wishes there would be a zombie plague now, so he can grab some guns and blast away the buggers in a pool of zombie blood.

But to his despair... no zombies and he doesn't have a gun license
*yawn*

Oh well... gotta find something to do

-Jian-

ゆすけ

Inside the Garden

I really hate the semester breaks... I'm always stuck here with nothing to do. The person I want to go out with is either busy or tired and I feel guilty if I disturb anyone

Being bored makes me think more and more till I eventually get a headache. *Getting one now thanks to a monkey singing (badly) next to me*

What's on my mind as of now (besides being bored)?

It's my Garden of Dreams... I'm mapping put that place in my head; from every tree to every living creature that lives there.

The sun shines over the luscious land of green. Every inch of land is covered with the green grass and trees. A small hill covered in grass would be the place I would have my back against the grass, with my eyes to the heavens watching the clouds pass by. On top of that hill would be a fruit tree that would bear any fruit that I wish to eat and the fruit would grow every time I get hungry.

Where the land ends will be a body of water. Multiple lakes and streams that join together that surrounds the Garden and traps it from the outside world. The lakes would be filled with life, a perfect place for a swim. The stream would flow in an endless cycle with a waterfall n the middle.

Life would be everywhere in this Garden... The sound of the birds and the buzzing of the bees would be the sound that covers the Garden. Every life will live in harmony... No fights, No disputes... Just understanding and compromise.

Most importantly, this Garden will be a place for me to clear my thoughts, to share my feelings and just to talk with the people who are important to me... a place who only I can enter and allow whoever I want in... a place for me and you.

But as the name states, It's just a Garden of Dreams.

-Jian-

ゆすけ

Mirror Ball by Alice Nine

In my memory
Lies a place of smiles
With green grass and blue skies
Stretching over the hills and to the heavens
A place just for me
Called the Garden of Dreams

Garden of Dreams

Here in this summer breeze

No clouds to be seen
My heart is beating
As I slowly begin thinking

The thought of you
Will not keep me still
With a vision of your smile
It makes my heart go wild

Sitting here
With a restless mind
I could no longer hold
What I kept inside

With romance on my mind
Clear as it seems
I'll hold you close
In my Garden of Dreams

How I wish I can find my Garden of Dreams and stay with the calm serenity of nature... =]

1st Day of the semester break... what have I been doing?

• Anime
• Games
• Facebook
• Anime
• Bored
• Music
• More Anime

Yea... that sums it up... Conclusion... JIAN IS BORED!!!!

-Jian-

ゆすけ

Chemical King Twoon by LM.C

Shadowed...

Looking into the mirror's glow's

Seeing a reflection of the soul
The double who we thought was you
Was nothing more than a shadow's hue

Hanging on the balance
of a time gone wrong
Shadowed by the darkness
With nothing holding on

Trying so hard to mask the truth
Yet the mask falls off revealing the real you

Look deep into that heart of yours
Find for that piece you solely own
Be true to thy self
And never let go

Finally... Freedom is here. No more classes and lugging heavy books. I can finally set my feet on high and enjoy to my heart's content.

Thanks for today... I had lots of fun... too bad I can't say the same for this evening:

-Jian-

ゆすけ

Amazing Grace

Grasping Freedom...

The chains that bind

Steel so cold...

Return me my freedom

Give me back my soul

For
Freedom is the only thing I left unknown

-Jian-

Trapped by the chains of fate,

Waiting to be set free...

Only you hold the key

That binds me to my Destiny

-Jian-

Only ONE more paper left... I can taste the sweet nectar of freedom. The chains of today shall be broken by the dreams of tomorrow.

-Jian-

ゆすけ

PS: I NEED TO TAKE MORE PICTURES!!!

Tetra Fang's Destiny Play

My ode to life....

When the world got me down

Smile and don't show a frown

Hold thy head on high

And walk away with a smile


This is who I am inside

Waiting for your answer

To heed those words of joy or tear

That is all I am after

-Jian-

Bracing the world without fear

Buck Up....

COME ON JIAN!!!

FIGHT!!!

ONLY A FEW DAYS

3 PAPERS

YOU'LL DO FINE....

DON'T THINK SO MUCH!!!

CONCENTRATE!!!!


YOU KNOW WHAT YOU MUST DO...

DON'T LET THE ONE THAT CARES FOR YOU DOWN!!!!

F
O
C
U
S

AIM FOR THE CHECKMATE

-Jian-

ゆすけ

Shadowed by this fear

Alone in the dark

Will anyone show me the way

And set me free from these chains

....

It's the Light I seek....



DISTRESS AND COMA

Just Thinking...

WARNING: EMO POST
*Pinz Don't Kill me*

I just need some place to vent my thoughts and this place is one of my options... I just have a lot of things on my mind lately and I know some people say I should not think so much, but I can't help it.

These thoughts and plans and wonders just come into my head with prior notice and I can't control it... If I don't think about it, I won't be able to function. Yea... I hate it when that happens cause I tend to annoy lots of people with my thoughts.

Sometimes I wonder what am I here for, questions of life just fill my head and I wonder what can I do. Being here, just living... I know what I want in life, but I never gotten a step into how I want to achieve it... and it drags me down...

I also wonder how much do I mean to someone, it's just some random thought I tend to think about. Call me stupid, call me self-conscious, whatever... I'm just being the person I know best.
This is just one of those thought that keep haunting me...

Am I the person who I think I am, or am I hiding my true self from my own just so I can run away from finding the truth about myself?

Besides... these are all just random thinking here... I love my life at this point and I know some people do care for me, I wanna hold them dear to my heart and do what I can to live...
For those who spent time reading... I thank thee.

For those who skipped this... I'm not angry, this are just my thoughts... reading it or not will not change anything

I appreciate it


-Jian-
ゆすけ

PS:

Worried Heart and Disturb Soul

That's what I want to know...

Let me drown in this ending sorrow

And I will awaken in a better tomorrow

Distress and De-stress

It's that time of month again... Exams... Finals... Die....

2 more days... Must... Study...

Maybe Later XD

The LAZY Virus has kicked in and I just wanna sleep...

But whatever... I'm happy nyappy today =]

Owh and....

BLUEK
This is for calling librarian guys... gay

=]

-Jian-

ゆすけ

Aroma by An Cafe

I learn to

treasure the things

I hardly get....

Right here....

I am not in your past...

But I'm here with you in the present

And You know I'll be here in your future

-Jian is thinking-
(again)

PS: Should really stop listening to sappy songs.... =.=

Drowning in a Sea of Words

Bring me away from the hells of man

And lead me into the promise land....

-Jian-



My Heart cries as it starts to faint,

Without you here...

My heart aches in pain

Let it die in vain

Under this pouring rain...

-Jian-



I can hear the sounds of the cricket's song

Playing in a tune without a wrong

With the beat of the wind

and the tap of the leafs

Let sing along

To this unending melody

-Jian-



How Six Songs Collide

Poems Poems Poems....

Born into this dark abyss,
Filled with evil from within,
I am nothing more than a sin,
With the blood of man coursing within.

Set me free from this darkness night,
Allow my wings to take it's flight,
Take me away from this dying place,
And bring me to the light of day.

Don't look back,
Forget those tears,
I have left,
What I held dear...

-Jian-

The sound of the waves,
That crashed on the beach,

The song the birds,
Playing a sweet melody,

The sight of the sun,
Setting in a burning glow,

The beat of my heart,
That beats...
Just for you...

-Jian-

=]

I'm bored... no one to entertain me...



Arigatou by Flow

Woof...

Jogging has been a hazard to me now... more than giving me benefits, I'm literally risking my life. What am I talking about...?

It's those stray dogs... I can't go anywhere without running into a dog... scary... especially the black ones... *shivers*

Jes was "kind" enough to do this....

Me: Stay Away
Dog: Woof...

Lol... Too lazy to blog much... nights...


-Jian-

ゆすけ

Weeee... Love this song

THE MUST READ POST...

Catchy title... well after blogging for almost a year... I finally reached my 100th Post. *Shrugs*... not that special anyway...

I've been way behind on my blogging and picture taking, I'm starting to think I've been procrastinating too much until my assignment stack is through the roof and this week has not been the best of weeks...

Number one is assignments... *thank goodness I only have 2 presentations left*

Number two... I got chased by stray dogs *again by the same dog* Damn....

"Jian's Obsession to kill all *stray* dogs has turned wild"
*Stupid owners... dumping them everywhere...

Number three... LAZY

But I have the urge to blog once again:

The creeping shadows,
That run down mill,
A young boy wanders,
Searching for his lost soul...

In darkness he walks,
Under the moonlit night,
In sadness he moans,
Unable to cry

No one knows who he is
or Why he's there,
With his tattered clothes,
and eyes so cold.

Soon day will break,
He wanders off,
Only to return,
When the sun goes off

The silence that keeps,
The stillness that holds,
The pain in his heart,
No one will ever know...

Yea I know... I'm being really random here... So here's a few pictures to lighten the mood =)

Cute Cute =]

Promoting Subway

K.I.D.S

N.E.R.D
*Cause he looks like one here*

Oh one more thing....

I can'r get ACGC outta my mind...

-Jian-

ゆすけ

PS: I FINALLY GOT VIDOLL'S NEW SINGLE!!! *JUMPS*

JUI!!!!!

Cryptic Tokyo by Vidoll